Who Am I? A Testimony!

“Who am I that you keep me on Your mind? God I’m just grateful for You”!

I could tell you all about who I am in the flesh! Shameful, angry, bitter, prideful, easily offended, materialistic, judgemental….a sinner! My eyes, set on the things I can see! My ears, hoping to hear reassuring words that all will be okay! A mind and body completely consumed by heavy emotions that in turn have me speaking anything but life to others. Constantly finding myself chasing the hem of other’s garments just to prove to myself that I am somewhat worthy of love and time! Complaining endlessly about what’s wrong rather than being thankful for what I do have!

But who am I in the spirit? What did God say in all of my yesterday’s, in my today, and in all of my tomorrow’s? God says that I am His daughter! God says He loves me!

My Jesus! He didn’t just clean up that flesh version of me; He made me completely new! Graciously and mercifully clothed me in His righteousness! Chose me, set me apart, adopted me into His family even as a Gentile, and put good in me where no good was found!

He became flesh, tabernacled with His creation, became sin, and hung on a cursed tree for that flesh me! He knew that we couldn’t redeem ourselves, so since Genesis…worked a plan for all of humanity to be reconciled back to Him as He intended at creation.

Walking out faith has not been easy, but He already told me that! A season of trench dragging, heart pressing, chest caving pain is serving such a greater Kingdom purpose that all I can do is find gratitude for Him. He has taken the time to not just put me in the refining fire but also reminds me over and over that He’s right here!

It’s not about religion! It’s not about pointing out good v bad! It’s not about doing more! It’s solely about a relationship with Him! If all this season does is take my stony, shallow heart to my tender Creator’s hands then forward I will forever go with my eyes set on Him!

I say all of this to point out…I am far from having it all figured out! I still struggle. I daily, multiple times a day, have to shift my mind from circumstances to Him! I cast at His feet, then go pick it all back up! But guess what, He already knew! He says, come as you are - all you need is a mustard seed of faith!

So, what did God do? He put me in His church to fellowship, to be loved on, to serve, to be supported, to simply do life together, to freely worship and praise Him!

We all are a part of the body and each one necessary! Not one more broken than the next, but all made whole by Jesus!

Just thank you God for never giving up on me! Thank you, Jesus, for paying it all, interceding for me, imparting Your spirit! Thank you, Holy Spirit, for Your power, comfort, presence, and wisdom! To Him be the glory! Man, He is soooooo GOOD!